Cas

Fri, 05 Sep 2008 15:28:06 GMT

Last updated 115 weeks ago.
I am so distraught I think I might write in this again..

Fri, 23 Jun 2006 04:14:01 GMT

Update:

Summer is finally here!
It's what i've been waiting for all along.
Hopefully I get this job i heard about today.
&& hopefully no one will care if i do get the job that i get my monroe.. they shouldn't i'd be in an office anyway.
But yeah..
Buffalo this sunday until wed.
I never knew how to spell wed. and i still dont.
anyway, im exited -- i love road trips.

&& I'm exited to hang out with someone I've always wanted to.

Other than that I have to make this the best summer ever.
Because its the one before everyone leaves to go to college.
We're all getting so old, and the time has passed us by so fast.
Most of it was fun.

Others [like the akward stages after the fights including right now] not so good.

This better be a good one..

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 19:17:08 GMT

New lj.

got pissed at this one...

add me.

www.livejournal.com/users/casxcore
casxcore@aim.com <-- email.

Peace out bitches.

aye

Fri, 23 Sep 2005 19:22:22 GMT

Im tired. But im so glad today is friday...
Homecoming is tomorrow.
Our school is ridiculously gayy.
no joke --
they fucking used toliet paper to wrap around the ankles of the teams to do the three legged race...
but get this, if it broke you were disqualified...
yeah, all of them broke.
the only good thing about it was tug a war.
my hands hurt from it though.
our class is always the best at tug a war.
wow this is how bored i am ^ that im telling you about what happened at the pep rally in school... do i ever do that? hahahaha.
I think i want to dress like im from the 50's for homecoming too. and ive been thinking about doing that for halloween way before homecoming.

i miss my love ='[
aye, im so bored.
and myspace sucks -- no one ever leaves me anything good/new. wtf?
Im out. maybe ill write something later.
<3Peace.

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 05:11:58 GMT

yo, tonight was so much fun.
i havent seen some people in so long.
and i missed the ones i thought hated me. =]
but they don't hate me.
poor cas.
Wow. Im incredibly hyper.
and this marker is like... never gonna come off. guess ill be wearing t-shirts for ...a while.
anyway, im pretty tired.
but yet incredibly exited and joyful.
hahahhahaha.
<333.

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 03:46:33 GMT

i don't understand.

"You kiss me like an overdramatic actor who's starving for work,
with one last shot to make it happen.
You've won the role, you've played your part, you've been cordially invited.
But I'm not impressed, and I'm definitely not excited.
'Cause the film runs a shallow budget, and the writer's subject script isn't any deeper.
So dive right in...

Hollywood hills and suburban thrills,
hey you, who are you kidding?
I'm not like them. I won't buy in.
Hollywood hills and suburban thrills,
hey you, who are you kidding?
Don't quit 'til 47.
Then we'll turn it up and we'll play a little faster.

Take back everything you ever said.
You never meant a word of it. You never did.
Take back everything you said.

You never meant a word of it. You never did.

She said 'Alright, Alright, slow down!"
Oh no, oh no, we won't.
'Cause I regret every thing that I said
To ever make her feel like she was something special,
Or that she ever really mattered.
Or did she ever really matter?"

i <3 the academy is...

i just thought you should see this::

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 04:53:40 GMT

ha.....haha =]
I love it.

new s/n

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 20:25:55 GMT

New s/n guys -- casXcore

add it.

bordem pics... w00t

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 03:28:35 GMT

So as im bored sitting here all alone i decided to go into my room, dress unusual and take pictures...
I'm going to post them in my blog because i have nothing better to do =]

Im an OG...

and i might be on a bit of crack =/

...just a lil'

fucking sherlock homes biiiitches =]

i wish i was from the 50's

lykee omgzzz!

Mardi Gras much?

[Cas] ^_^

::sigh::

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 04:22:21 GMT

I've been home for awhile now, and i realized why i left in the first place. The people that i don't like. Although the people i love i missed but the people that i used to talk to or just never liked in the first place... yeah there gay.
I realize that the people that have hurt me in the past, the people i was so close to hurt me because i was attached and didn't know what was going to happen. I've noticed this as i read my friends lj's because now its happening to them. I hate how i get upset and attached over the stupidest shit. But how when other people get pissed over stupid shit -- everything's my fucking fault. Ahhh, lets not get started.
So i got abandonded tonight by like -- every living soul on earth. Im sick and stuck at home. This pills better work magic and make me all better by tomorrow afternoon [when i wake up ^_^ ] And now that im thinking of the people that hurt me i miss them... good job!#@$? uggh. i should delete them. Awww thats wrong.
We need to go school shopping still. It starts the 6th. Thats fucking gay. Altough this summer has been incredibly boring, I don't feel like going back to school with all those fucking gay assed people that i cant stand. [Sluts... ugh] And i won't go back to school before i get my lip pierced. I'll have to tell my mom that -- that way she has to take me so i can get an education. =] I need a new hole to learn!
O-kay. Im going to stop randomly typing about shit that dosent matter. Hopefully i can go to sleep at a reasonably decent hour [for summer that is] even though its almost 12:30. I now have to wait for my love to come home from the show and eating and whatever else it is he decided to randomly go about and do while im sitting at home waiting. Ahhh, sometimes... =] <333.
Goodnight. ::hopefully::
[Cas]

::vrmm, vrmmm::

Mon, 22 Aug 2005 22:28:31 GMT

So we went to get my permit today... I passed. Mamma said i was going to get two wrong and i did. =] Then i drove from the county building to the hospital and then home =] I think im scared of people getting road rage with me so i try to stay going the speed limit and then i end up going too fast >_< Im so glad to be home... hopefully i can convience her to bring me tomorrow to get my piercing. After i drive her to the doctors. teehee. My back is killing me, and i miss my boy =[.

Hopefully we'll run out of... milk... or something later. >.<

[Cas]

home =]

Sun, 21 Aug 2005 21:32:33 GMT

Im finally home. I went to bed at 6am this morning and have slept the day away... But thats okay because no one has called me to tell me to get up because there is something to do. And because we've been gone for 3 weeks [well almost] theres no food in the house and im a smig hungry... I need to go out and do something before i become a hermit again. But its good to be home. =]

[Cas]

Hey Ya'll.

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 03:24:22 GMT

Im stuck in fl... and i want to come home. I miss dan, and everyones getting annoying seeing i've been with them for over 2 weeks. Jen left me and now i have to deal with everyone on my own. She was smart to leave before i "got bitchy" hahaha. Anyway, im bored and lonley and isolated... Trapped. I just wanted to share that with everyone, I have nothing better to do.
Tomorrow we are going to go to dothan ,alabama :the peanut capital - because we are tired of just sitting here. The car will probably break down.
Ahhh my food is burning. Someone go leave me something new on myspace to find hopefully when i get home. =] www.myspace.com/casrocks
Oh, and if thats not bad im starting to develop one of those southern accents :: you know that "Hey ya'll come back now and bring your cousins cause im fixin' to find a wife at my family reunion" kinda thing.

Dear lord.

[Cas]

Confused and Concerned

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 03:12:09 GMT

Have you ever got asked if you were okay, and you said you were... but the person asking question you and told you they didnt think you were? If yes, then has this ever happened to you several times with several different people within a day? If yes, can anyone explain why? God i hate life... How can anyone believe in god when life is shitty? ...And why is it that the ones we loved are always taken away from us but the ones we dont care about or want to get rid of live longer than we do? Gosh darn it... Im not in the right state of mind. More questions... do you ever feel that the ones who claim to care about you and love you really dont want anything to do with you because they don't show it but they dont understand why your upset? I hate change.

Flabberghasted:Bang

Fri, 28 Jan 2005 19:46:38 GMT

Yo. Its friday, my mother went to georgia for the weekend, and i dont have any school... i guess its a pretty good day eh? heh. There is no point to me writting this besides to shut sluts up that keep telling me to write in here more often. That is all.

Sleep with one eye open,
Cas

Hugs!

Mon, 08 Nov 2004 04:35:05 GMT

I want more hugs! sorry i havent written in a long while... kinda forgot about it =(

*HUGS* TOTAL!
give MyBledingHrt02 more *HUGS*

Get hugs of your own

Kill me before i make more mistakes.

Wed, 28 Jul 2004 00:39:16 GMT

Im terribly bored. I really need to get out of here. I have been here all summer and im sick of it. Ahh theres nothing to do and no where to go... This blows. I got my digital camera im soo happy =) Even though i havent hung out with anyone or gone anywhere to take pics! ugh this sucks and summers almost over. This year at school is gonna suck. Jess isnt gonna be there, neither is Chris or Ej or Jon or anyone damnit. That blows... everything blows lol Ill shut up now =)

<3 Cas

Haven't wrote in a long time...

Wed, 21 Jul 2004 06:23:05 GMT

Wow. I havent wrote in over a month... Today, well, yesterday i guess was my birthday. It wasn't as fun as i had wished. I got told i was depressed and needed help though. Yet ive been told that before so i dont see what the difference is. Im fine! Tomorrow will be loads of fun seeing as I have to go up to PB (Pine Bush) and babysit thurs. then fri i get to stay for my little cousins (the one im babysitting) party and then i get my digital camera yay! Im still trying to convience my mamma to bring me to warped tour. She better take me... I deserve it damnit! aye. I need a vacation. Road Trip! Sat the 17th was my birthday party =) actually it was more fun then i expected. yet a lot of people that said they would be there werent. Thats okay. they missed out ;] I can't believe its almost the end of July. Then August... then back to all that school shit. oh boy i cant wait. getting harassed in the hallways, waking up early in the morning not at 2 in the afternoon which means i cant stay up late. I dont think i'll be able to wake up. But that wont surprise anyone. Anyway... homework. no job. no money. no fun. no lisence lol. I need friends that drive man... It sucks being stuck at home. I think i should go to bed now... Im kinda tired... either that or im just too bored to keep my eyes open... hmm idk? Ill try to write soon again.

Much <3

*Cas

Hmm...

Thu, 17 Jun 2004 04:22:30 GMT

Today was intresting... I woke up at around 3:30 pm only because my mom came into my room and yelled at me to get up. Then didnt do anything all day and wanted to go out but had no where to go because it was too dark to walk and mamma didnt wanna drive me anywhere... like always. This summer better not be the same way. I wanna go out everyday. If my friends arnt working. Damn ppl with jobs =( lol Last dance class is tmrrw and then off for the summer. Friday i have bio regents and then off for another week =D The trip to mass. was intresting... Bitchy ppl suck. omg some ppl can be cool until you get to know them. Oh boy. lol Hmm Im tired, bored and lonley. I just love it. Why is it that 116 ppl are on my buddylist right now and im not talking to anyone? Yup thats right... Because im a loser! =D O wait.. someone IMed me... but i have no idea who they are lol. Hmm... i think i get to see fireworks this Sat =D and go to a carnival! yay! =) Becca - great escape... boxer twins.... family traits... hell yeah! oh man being this is a shout out you cant forget the boat... heeeeeell yeah! =D <3 yay well... im out... peace one ;] hahaha

~*Cas*~ <3

Long time since i wrote...

Mon, 14 Jun 2004 03:24:57 GMT

Long time since i wrote. Wow. I signed up for myspace today. Its pretty cool. Tomorrow im going to mass. lol i have to take my math final, run to goshen and pick up my new glasses and then go home and pack and leave to sleep in the car. I should probably make CD's to listen to also but im lazy and tired right now. I dont even think I have room on my bed for me =( theres boxes and shit all over. I didnt even take a shower... Oh man i feel so gross. Wow... get the rocks =( Hmm maybe going away will help me clear my mind and stop some things. "Have u ever fallen in love with someone you shouldnt have fallen in love with?" YES! ugh and it sux oh boy. Check out my myspace profile http://profile.myspace.com/users/4525701 and sign up an add me as ur friend bc u love me =D My weeked was... intresting... My leg feels like its gonna fucking break off though. hmm ever had someone ask u to go somewhere but left out details... yeah if not... u might wanna ask about the place bc u might be in for something you dont wanna do... it kills damnit. Yet the sad part is im complaining and id prolly do it again hahaha Oh man. Im convincing my mom to bring me to warped tour this summer... the second part is i need to think of someone good to bring with me if she lets me go =) I wanna go to florida with Jen for the summer too... we will have a good time ;] i bet we'd (she'd) get eye raped on the beach. Awe man... eye raped... crazy times... well im off to bed. if you love me you will call me =/...

<3 *Cas

lalala...

Sun, 09 May 2004 02:38:52 GMT

Nice day out. It was kinda cold before. I havent talked to ya know who in like 2 days...its upsetting. Today Jess and me walked all over lookin for freakin Brenden. Then we found him and she kept walkin away from him. wow. shes crazy. It was cold in cedarcrest...and i had no1 to keep me warm and cozy :(. I need to go to sleep. Tomorrow is mothers day and i didnt get anything for my mama. I dont even know what to do for her! Hmm...Boys are Stupid Throw Rocks at them. =) jk, jk! you know i love them...with out them there would be no drama. and no1 can live without drama. haha ecspically the people that do it for all the attention...Stupid walking STDs ugh i hate them. lol aye yaey yaey! They should learn to mind there own buisness!!! hmm...anyway...people suck.a lot...i think they like doin that way too much. ahh i hate ppl..i need a butchers knife and just start swining :-p I think that im gonna go and try to get warm...and maybe watch some TV...Nitey Nite in case i fall asleep =)

~*Cas*~

...Shocking News...UGH!?

Mon, 26 Apr 2004 01:39:41 GMT

Mr. Pomponio...i cant believe it. I don't believe it. It dosent seem true. Tomorrow will be the state of shock when 2nd period we go to the library and can chew all the gum we want and talk the whole period with out getting yelled at by him to throw out the gum and sing. :'( On the other hand...besides this ^... today wasnt a bad day. Got to go to Jens house after having a sleep over. :-p Things are almost the same. Still being ignored and still attached but hey! What can i do about it? haha Nothing! Thats right! ;) of course. Hmm...I started to clean up my room a lil bit more. I put my clothes away, then went and got more to put away. Showed off my crazy socks :) People think im weird now they should get to know me better! haha! O yeah Thats whats supposed to be happening but noooooo! ugh! its all BS! I swear. Yeaaaaaah, I think im gonna stop writting before i put a threat or suicide note or something in here. God Only Knows....

~*Cas*~

Aye yaey yaey! Confusing times...

Sun, 18 Apr 2004 03:58:49 GMT

Things are Crazzzy! I just cant seem to figure out whats going on anymore. I feel so lost and confused. I just feel so alone..if you know what I mean... I miss him :/ Everything just seems to remind me of everything else, all the time. no matter what it is...everything is connected in someway. Maybe thats because its on my mind all the time. This weekend isnt going that bad. Got to spend some time with my best girlieo Coll :) Friday wasnt all that good, Got pissed off! Was supposed to go somewhere but had a game and then the stupid game i didnt get to play at all so it was a waste of my time! I hate lil' kids! When i have my own i swear im gonna make sure they are brought up so much better then my annoying cousins. You know whats weird....sitting around a fire...and suddenly notice four search lights in the sky circling around. They look like there coming from the devlopment over....---> there lol Well yeah Village Park. O man i love it sooo much! Just being ignored and now i just feel loved soooo much! Why am i still holding on? Why can't I let go? Why can't i realize im not the one...? :( Hmm I must go...I must go to bed so that I can wake up tmrrw to have another adventuruos day in god only knows where...:) Looking forward to it and all the plans we already made for the summer and the future.

~*Cas*~

CrAzY

Mon, 12 Apr 2004 06:37:20 GMT

Easter :) Today i woke up late, got ready, went to my aunts house with the rest of my family and got some presants and money. Got to go easter egg hunting, I know im gay like that. But hey! i had fun so shut up! Aye, throw rocks at them all! Im going crazy i swear! ahhhh! I just wanna scream my heart out that way i cant feel for anything! But that probably wouldnt be good so i guess i cant do that. Wow 10 minutes and ive been writing this thing for an hour and only have this much...i guess its because im too busy fighting with them! ahh! I better stop writting before i post something on the internet that i will regret. Write l8er...Bye

~*Cas*~

Easter!

Sun, 11 Apr 2004 05:46:10 GMT

Its almost easter! Today mama brought me cleaning with her then we went to the mall. I love having money or someone that has money buy you things at the mall. Its wonderful I got easter presants and tomorrow i get candy but i bet im gonna know what im getting before i get it because right now my mom is in my kitchen making all the baskets! how dare her! No surprises now :( I just wont go in there lol wow my eyes burn again, not good. Im tired but i cant go to bed yeat because i have to wait to say goodnight otherwise ill feel bad. Even though i know "they" would just leave without saying anything like THEY JUST DID! ahh i have been agervated so much latley! yummmm look at all that candy :) hehe im just gonna end up ruining the surprise! :( I hate being tired and hyper at the same time. I need to get a camera, so i can take all these wacky pics and put them on my computer and send them to everyone and hang them all over my room. Because I love my friends hehe Jen is still in florida and has only called me once! This spring break wasnt that great. Only 2 days left, which sux. Hopefully tomorrow...today...will be an eventful day because im gonna be with my crazy family and we all know how that goes...well at least i do. My mom told me to wear my fishnet stockings, black mini skirt, black high heeled boots, crazy shirt and all that crayness outfit to the family get together and see what everyone does. I think i will too because im just like that lol but im gonna bring stuff to change into :) Then if i wear it i'll have picutres on no lol I think ima go to bed though, my eyes burn and "they" isnt back yet! ahh where did "they" go now!? Goodnight everyone, post some good comments for me and ill write tomorrow...if your lucky that is...;)

~*Cas*~